Hiii, how have you beeeen? My head is everywhere and nowhere at the same time. I had a drafted idea of what today’s letter was going to be about and it didn’t resonate with me anymore. The good thing is that I went back to my past entry (19) poems to embrace winter stagnation and followed my own (genius) advice (jk) so today I’m making a wish list or the resolution list I’m most excited about for this year.
My word for 2023: *achieve*
01
I’m a planner person. My happiest time creating is having an idea to plan. I like to imagine the how to do it, I love explaining how could be the best, easiest, fastest, most effective way to do something according to your habits, how to organize everything to achieve a goal.
I have opinions on how to plan but I get very quiet when it comes to achieving something.
Achieving a goal, getting completely to the end and being happy about the result, is not something I see very often in what I do. I do not finish so many projects and ideas I have in mind, I don’t even finish a whole plate of food when I’m eating, I tend to always leave the last bite. I used to see myself in this Jimmy Neutron character, Professor Calamitous, the guy who would never finish what he began.
So, tired of my inability to accomplish what I feel deep in my souuul that I want to do, the word I decided to make the intention of the year 2023 is… achieve.
All I want this year is that all that I have been wanting to manifest for the past years, I get it, I achieve it. I was thinking that “achieve” might be a negative word, too aspirational, too ambitious, to the extent of being greedy. But to think of achieving as something bad is the sign that I actually needed. I want to achieve everything that I propose to myself through work, effort, dedication, perseverance, action, commitment to my desires.
This year is dedicated to my masculine energy. It’s not bad to want to reconnect with my masculine energy, it’s a part of me that I have very repressed, I’m used to saying that I’m a very passive person, I let things happen to me rather than taking the first step. It’s not always true but I don’t want to think of myself like that and make it my personality. As a creative, I’m an action person as well.
To achieve means to put the work in, the action, to be proactive in every single step of my day, to know that as I achieve, I am creating.
02
So yeah, that’s how Capricorn season is treating me just before getting into the next shift of energy.
I still feel the stamina of wanting to do things, of planning and doing. It feels pretty balanced these days. Some of the things I started doing are the 12-Week year goal planning (which I explained in this letter), I break every big goal into little weekly goals, daily tasks that I tend to organize as I begin the week. Every day I start with my silly little morning routine to get into the action: I wash my face, I make a tea, let it sit, meditate 15ish minutes, drink my tea and write anything I think. I try to intention my days by saying: “just go, go, go” and “be gentle”.
I have also been reading a lot lately! I decided I was going to start reading frequently. I think that last year all I read was:
Milan Kundera’s The Unbearable Lightness of Being
All About Love by bell hooks
Letters to a Young Poet by Rainer Maria Rilke
Ottesa Moshfeg’s My Year of Rest and Relaxation
and my new bible Species of Spaces and Other Pieces by Georges Perec
Oh god just five. I mean, that felt enough but I want moooore. I feel like I just want to read more for two reasons: to learn more written English and to spend less time on my computer or phone. I do have some books on my TBR list, I started reading a very insightful book about empathetic marketing, as well as a novel that’s about a collection of conversations on a trip, I did buy also one about psychology and there’s a classic by Marcel Proust that maybe I get into this month. I’ll let you know what I read this month and what I think about it on the next Virgos Don’t Cry entry.
03
I haven’t forgotten that I have a list to write! I was looking at my past entry and thought that it would be nice to do the creative exercise I chose for Virgos, follow my own reasonable advice for once. So here are my 30 things I want to do before my next birthday, on September 12. I want to come back to this and check the list when the date comes.
See my best friends.
Go vintage shopping in Milan.
Photograph my grandma.
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