(15) birthday edition
Bday recap! Breakthroughs of a 27 year old virgo queen.
Helloooo, long time no read! I’ve been doing some more content for my other sections lately mainly because it’s easier to write about tv shows, outfits and what not… but here I come to celebrate with youuuu. It’s been a long week, I turned 27 on monday and now I’m alone in my house writing about what has been going on. So keep reading or scroll down all the way for my september playlist <3 and if you want to see more of me and what I like you can follow me on tiktok.
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First of all I’ll leave a summary of my bday weekend in pictures:
It all started with a extremely beautiful surprise present from Anna 💘
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Then everything went uphill
All in all, I feel very grateful. It felt as if it was the first birthday I truly enjoyed without the burden of great expectations.
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So, my breakthroughs list is very small. I have not been getting that instrospective lately, I have been leaving that for therapy and it’s more about reliving and remembering past experiences. But to focus on now, what has been happening to me, it’s mostly something that I feel like has been a veeeeery veeeery slow change.
It’s my first year in London. I arrived to London with Anna the day of my birthday, it was a very hectic move and it took a lot of time for me to see what was happening, like the actual decision that I made. The way I decided to come to London was super fast: I met Anna, we fell in love, she told me to come with her bc she was studying here, I said OK, figured that I was just starting my life in Mexico City and I was in the right moment to leave it, nothing was permanent yet. Sooo, yeah it took me a while to acknowledge the big leap I made. It has been hard to adapt, getting out there is not that easy, being social is not that easy, meeting people, finding a job, even going out… hard as fuck.
The thing is, we make it fun. We make it entertaining, we make our life and our home here. And by we I mean it in two ways: Anna and me; and just like me in general. To feel like I’m part of every place I set foot on, is up to me. So I’ve been working on that, I’m taking group tennis on thursdays and yoga on saturdays, I’m also walking around more, doing touristy and local stuff, knowing places I like and the thing that I want to give my energy to as of this year is making connections. I’m starting a project that excites me and the possibility of connecting with people that would like it too, is my motivation.I think I sometimes lose my personality. I’ve been watching RuPaul’s Drag Race and oh boy hahah there’s a looooot to think about and to use as reference. I’m not a personality queen. Since I haven’t been socializing like I used to, I’m not showing some parts of myself that blossom around people. It’s not easy for me to be funny, charismatic or extroverted, it’s a practice and I know I had it like one, two years ago at some level and started losing it.
Maybe I need to have more fun with myself, stop being that introverted for a while. It’s not something bad but I’m getting bored. Sometimes that’s why I don’t write. I get self conscious and tend to be like “you don’t have anything to say, don’t write”. So I’ll start my personality practice hahaha, maybe by talking on tiktok or actually going out more.Last one: I think I’ll love 27. I love the number 3 and any multiple of it, my birthday is 12/09 so there’s something about 3 and it’s multiples that feel very harmonious to me. I used to be an edgy, angsty, depressed teenager that as I was discovering pop culture references, I would always say that I wanted to be a part of the 27 club, guess what, I don’t want to anymore hahaha.
It’s been a little while since I started seeing life different and I do see myself as less scared of growing up. I actually want to live a long life, I can imagine myself being 40 and feeling young and with energy and that’s a looot of years from now. So yeah, I don’t feel any pressure anymore, no rush, no nothing. Like Kendall or Kourtney i don’t remember once said: “I think you should experience it. You always say you want to experience things but I don’t think you actually want to experience things because you would experience it if you wanted to experience things”. I’m up for the experiences!
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I leave you with a playlist.
I’ve been adding songs lately so don’t expect the tracklist to be on point, I’m still editing the order. Enjoyyyyy!
What’s your september song? Mine turned out to be The World’s First Ever Monster Truck Front Flip by the Arctic Monkeys, I just love when he sings: “I’m just a bad girl trynna be good. I've got a laser guiding my love that I cannot adjuuuust”.